i am so excited to have my family all together as one, FINALLY! well almost finally.. lol. it is so emotioanlly overwhelming for me to get something i have been waiting for since our son was born. i cannot wait to embark on our new chapter in life as a family unit :)

wedding bells(almost)

I am trying very hard to just roll with whatever life throws me this week and just enjoy the moment. not to say it is always easy, but everything is what you make it. and i will make the most of this time and just stay calm and collected.

1st BIRTHDAY!

I cannot believe my little baby boy is already 1 year old... It is bittersweet. The first year has been quite the adventure. It doesn't feel like it has been a year already I feel like i just had him yesterday. Everyday when i drive past the hospital there are days that i want to go back to the day he was born. I wish i had taken more time to enjoy when he was a newborn I feel as though i let my exhaustion take me over, but what mom hasn't? Aside from all that i could not be any happier with the little man that God so graciously gave to me. I know that my son is the reason I am the woman I am now and i am so thankful for that. I LOVE MY RYAN ZACHARY :)

HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY BABY BOY :)

mommy's best friend (and daddy's too!)

i have had my jogger stroller for a couple months now and i cannot imagine not having it. it is effortless to steer and take those horrible bumps in the sidewalk like a champ haha! i would recommend it to every mom. even if you aren't big on exercise it is still so nice to have.

new task to tackle

With Drake leaving a month after we get married to join the air force, I have decided to make a scrapbook for our son Ryan to have when Drake leaves just filled with pictures of him and his daddy. I know that it will be hard to say good bye to him but it actually is just a see you later. I am excited and anxious but i know God will take care of us and guide us through this adventure we are about to start!

cloth diapering

if you asked me a year ago if i would ever consider trying cloth diapering i would have said heck no! that is soooo gross! however i was unaware of what i like to call "modern cloth diapering". it makes cloth diapering so much more easier and actually kind of fun haha. 

first you have the shell which holds the cloth insert in place.

then there is the cloth insert

i had bought the hemp inserts thinking that they hold more but the dry time is a bit too long for me and i would suggest getting the stay dry inserts.

now for those of you are well wait what if they your baby goes number 2?

here is the solution, you can dispose of what you can into the toilet, and then use the bum genius sprayer it gets all the the rest of the waste off of the insert and ready to toss into the washer.

 

yes these diapers can be an expense however they do pay for themselves over time, and i suggest everyone try it :)

I Love You

I must say being a mother has taught me a lot of things about myself. I have learned i can operate on no sleep, sometimes taking a shower can be your greatest achievement in a day, PATIENCE, and most importantly that putting someone before yourself is one of the most rewarding things you can experience. Having my son at 18 isn't the ideal situation for anyone but i would never change it for anything. My son has made me the adult I needed to be.I could honestly just sit and watch him play all day. I LOVE it when he wakes up from his nap and says "MOMMA!" and claps his hands and gives me a big bear hug when i go pick him up. Seeing him light up when he sees me is the best feeling ever. I really love being a mom. Regardless of age, i believe anyone can be a wonderful mom.

Let the Madness Begin!

So the wedding is 22 days away and within those 22 days i have Ryan's first birthday party, doctor appointments, and i start my job as a soccer referee. So with that being said let the chaos begin! When i first started to plan this wedding it was exciting but now i realized there are so many little details that go into planning a wedding that it is mind numbing at times. Setting up meetings, and calling people it can become a real pain. However recently I have realized that whether everything comes together right as planned is not going to determine my happiness for the day. It is all about having my family all together for the first time. Without a doubt i know God put Drake and Ryan in my life for a reason. I have faith in Him hat this his plan for me as well as Drake, and of course Ryan.We were all meant to be a family.